You were something else. A year that taught me so much and showed me what I am capable of. I originally wanted to make a whole video explaining everything that has happened this year, but unfortunately, I got sick. So, the next best thing is writing about it, which I think works out for the better. I made a little rewind video, if you want to watch what happened during my year. Now, if you would like to read more about my 2019, and every crazy thing that happened, here we go:
This was my first year moving on from softball. I played softball for 4 or 5 years I believe. Now, I didn’t quit the sport. I don’t quit doing things I love. I simply moved on from it. I moved onto bigger things, for me. Art makes me happier than anything and I knew, moving on from softball was the only thing that felt right. If I were still playing softball, I would not have time for anything I truly love. In the end, I wouldn’t be happy.
I started the year off with my best friends. We all had a sleep over on New Year’s Eve and experienced a moment I will never forget. It was the perfect start to an unforgettable year.
I wrote an original song called “Hands In Your Pockets” about one of my best friends at the time.
I liked someone a lot during this time. There were a lot of ups and downs.
I painted a self-portrait.
I started a lifelong friendship with my best friend.
I took a lot of pictures.
I asked my best friend to TWIRP and he said yes.
I drew for some friends.
I drew more for friends.
3 pictures of mine were in a National Art Show. One winning a silver key, which I got to go see with my best friend.
I wrote another original song “Coming Clean”
Went to TWIRP with my best friend.
My photo “Creature” made it to the city, which I got to go see with my two best friends.
I drew some more for friends.
I started opening up about a lot to my family and myself.
I painted some boots.
I created with my best friends.
My photo “Alone” was in an Art Show.
Released my website “creatingbyjenna.com”
I fell out of liking someone, a lot.
Took more pictures.
I painted a jean jacket.
I took more pictures.
I took A LOT of pictures.
5 pictures of mine were in an Art Show
Made friendships I will always treasure.
I took pictures for my friend’s band.
I drew for friends, again.
I laughed so much and made so many memories.
I started my first Internship with a local photographer
I started liking someone, a lot.
First day of summer photoshoots.
I took even more pictures.
I started summer school with my best friend.
The friendship with my best friend took off.
None stop photoshoots.
Spent an entire day with my best friends.
Went to the city with my best friend and took so many pictures.
I finished my painting “When It All Fell Down”
I truly smiled for myself.
4th of July Photoshoots.
I made new friendships and was genuinely happy.
I fell out of liking someone and my mental health began to plummet.
More photoshoots with new people.
After a lot of self reflection talking it out and realizing my worth. I finally felt free.
Shot my first wedding with a fellow photographer.
My mental health began to fall again because it was triggered by a glimpse of something, so simple.
I went to the city fair with some really cool people.
I cried, again.
I strengthened friendships.
More photoshoots with my best friend for exciting projects.
I spent a day with my favorite people.
I got to see my grade school family and smiled so much.
I spent the day with my best friend.
I started sophomore year.
I was happy, I cried, I was happy, and then I cried again.
I captured one of my favorite pictures I have even taken. (I will be able to show in 2020)
I turned 16!
First friday night lights!
I cried twice.
I drove by myself for the first time.
I got to meet one of my favorite authors Atticus, with my best friend.
I went thrifting with my best friend.
I shot my second wedding.
Made so many friendships.
More FNLs, stress, smiling, and homecoming memories.
More friendships, smiling, laughs, memories.
I took more pictures.
Spent a day with my favorite people and made unforgettable memories.
I went to a pumpkin patch with my friends.
Mental health was all over the place. (I cried.)
It snowed on Halloween.
I cried again.
I cried 3 times.
I celebrated my best friend’s birthday.
I felt pure joy for the first time in a while.
I really liked …
My photo “Auto-Phobia” was in an Art Show.
2 other pictures of mine were in a show, but I never had a chance to go see them.
I cried, I hurt, I cried again, I was happy, I cried, but everything was going really well.
… let go and it was a little numb.
I opened up a lot and cried.
I smiled for me again.
I saw Frozen 2 and cried with my best friend.
Random thoughts of …
Spent so much time with my best friends.
Stressed over finals //Finished finals//Winter break finally begins.
I got to see my best friend after 16 months.
Went on a little adventure with my family.
Finished my painting “Breathing Without Oxygen For The First Time”
Spent time with friends to end of the year.
If there is anything I have learned this year, it is that if I want to do something, I can and I will. If I put my mind to something, there is no going back. The key is to never doubt that you cannot do something. “I can’t do it,” should never be a part of your vocabulary. If you keep putting into the universe that you will do this, the chances of it happening are incredibly high. It is all mental. If you continually tell yourself you cannot do something, your mind will believe you. If you keep telling yourself you can/will do something, your mind will believe you. MANIFEST
Another thing I have learned, is that I should never apologize for being me. If someone I meet doesn’t like something about me, what I do, or what I say I shouldn’t be sorry for that. Of course if I hurt them, of course I am going to be sorry. But if I find myself continuously apologizing for every little thing I do, just because they don’t like or understand it, that is where I draw the line. Everyone makes mistakes, and unfortunately, some people cannot forgive, and I completely understand that, I’ve been in the same position. But if someone is supposed to be a friend, and they constantly criticize you for everything you do; that isn’t friendship, that is just plain toxic.
MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS
SELF LOVE/CARE IS NOT SELFISH
I also learned that everyone has two sides to them, wether you believe it or not.
I learned that art is my love, my outlet, my home, my safe place. The one thing that makes me happier than anything in the world.
Thank you, to those who read all the way through. 2019 has been an amazing year, and I am so incredibly proud of what I accomplished. I cannot wait to see what 2020 will hold and everything I plan to create.